Friday, August 1, 2008'♥
Dear lord , when can I really get happiness ? When can I really be settled into this family of mine ? Why do I have to screw everything up that's seems perfect ? Am I really th cause to my own downfall ? I'm here to repent , oh lord . But , I am not getting that chance anymore . I've disappointed yet another few people again , cause I'm going to hostel . Which I don't intend to face this reality , I'm choosing to runaway . Call me stupid , call me naive , call me COWARD . I just can't face this reality . So much for I yearn for , I don't want to be away from home . But why can't anyone see that point . Let's just forget all this alright ? Forget there's someone named violet . Caused , she's just a nobody . She doesn't deserve all this love that her family nds friends are giving her . Let alone say she's someone of calibre . She has none . She's just another bitch . Really .
I miss her , my so-called best friend . But is she really one ? I don't blame her for anything that has happened , even if she stabbed that wound of mine twice , she's still my best friend , ever that I have . I missed those times with her . But I will never be able to go back who I once was . I've learned , not to trust . It hurts to trust . It does . Nobody will support me like they always say they will . It's all just a facade . A mask that everyone puts on . I'm sick of all this . Maybe , one day when I'm really tired of all this . I will end it all . But is death really that simple like it seems ?
Boyf . They are just guys trying to play with me , they are sincere , as their mouth speaks . Their actions seems otherwise . I don't feel sincerity at all . None at all . That's why I chose to end every relationship first , before they did with me . I'm just trying not to get hurt . I'm weak , really weak .
I ❤ my family .
I ❤ my friends .
I ❤ you , if you know who you are .
♥`i'm Lyn.: i'll tell you asap, once i figure the thing out myself. [: haha.
hahas . figure what ?
windz: yo jie, tagged
yo di . hahas .
kaiLin: one year one year. hahas qirl ! lols i forgot what i wanted to say. i'll come back when i remember (:
lols . sure sure . ONE YEAR FASTER COME !
kaiLin: ohright, tiziana has a boyfriend ; maybe its tht`idiot samuel lye. HAHAS
lols . fuck that bastard .
CRYSTAL: laogong (: aini wor. ^^tagtag
laopo ! ❤ .
qiying: HELLO! WHOA triple science alr leh! must mug alrr (: OH OH. coool beatty ncc? haha. TELL US WHEN YOU ARE GOING FOR COURSES!
i doubt so already . read my post nds yous wills understand .
passer-by: hello i dont know you, but just want to say that if you want to start afresh, you can do it (: good luck for everything!
lols . thanks , but it's not going to happen already .
hi: All the best. Don't waste it.
hello hi , i'm bye =x thanks , but i'm wasting it . sorrys .
kkor: 6 MONTH LERHS HAHAS
yups .
xinyuan: YAY HAHA VIOLET YOU'RE IN TRIPLE SCIENCE????? SO COOL ALL THE BEST YEAH?
YOU CAN DO IT HEHE I LOVE YOU!!thanks encik ! but , i'm wasting it . i'm sorry . i ❤ yous too (:
kaiLin: qirl jiayous okays ;D i support you all the way (:
boy , how i wish you can talk me through all this . really . ❤
boy , i love you . 1:05 AM
