Tuesday, August 12, 2008'♥
All th fun I'm having right now , it seems perfect , ideal . Everyone seems to be by my side now . Yet , when reality hits me , will everyone be there like they are now ? If trouble comes our way , will they stay put like they say ? I doubt so , seriously . No one will really be by me . Catastrophe , I'm th cause of it . Why can't life be easier for all of us . It just seems so hard right now . Seeing him suffering for me , it's not worthwhile . Should I go back nds just surrender ? Will it be a better solution for all ? I'm not going back to that hell place again , yet , I don't want to see any other suffer for me .
CRYSTAL: laogong , you running away uhs ? contact me (: me & yuan worried for you luhs . & hope you manage to qo to sentosa @ sunday ^^
i did go after all right ? (:
♥`i'm Lyn.: aiya. girl, takecare ok. [: need help can tell me, i'll try to help.
haish . i see .
vicki: hey man violet which school you at now. or are you in school? o.o
i'm not in any school .
kailin: qirl contact me asap oks (: ILOVEYOU. i will get the thing you need soon. so meetup okays (: dont leave me alone. im scared =/
love yous too .
kailin: qirl you pierced you tongue already ! ? =S
yups .
hao: may i know your name?
violet ?
boy , i love you . 12:05 PM
Friday, August 8, 2008'♥
How long have I been running away from this reality ? It seems like just yesterday , yet it has already been more than 7 months . All th stuff that i've done , what is it that's becoming of me . I hate myself , really . Hated oh so much . But loves , tell me I ain't wrong . Tell me yous guys wills stay by me through all these . Seriously , enough of all these crappy insanity posts . Just let me live in peace people , will ya ?
boy , i love you . 10:34 AM
Thursday, August 7, 2008'♥
Khoo Kailin .
You will forever be my bestie okays . No matter what happens i'll wait for yous . Nobody understand yous , only yourself . Really . Just learn to be cool in school , anything call me . If they treat yous like crap , they will get it from me . Nobody treats anybody like a piece of crap , cause if they do , what if he/she is th one in your shoes ? How does it feel ? Seriously , people you need to listen up wise . Anyone dare lay a finger on my baby , i'll fuck you upside down .
HAPPY ONE YEAR`GIRL :D
I love you ; 070807 .
Twinnies PBT .
Everyone .
I'm running away already , don't ask me where I am cause my lips are sealed . I'll only tell people whom I can trust , not yous kendrick ( YOUS ASSHOLE BASTARD ) . Maybe i'm just really stupid . Yeah , plain stupid . But I cannot withstand th environment of being controlled . It's really difficult . Six years . It's not going to easy , but i'll try . Withs those who support me by my side , I take it all . Yous guys may say yous understand , but really , do you ? Someone has gone through what I have gone through , but th story would be different . Busybodies , fuck off from my life . Be a nice bystander , just shut your trap up .
Boy oh boy .
Are yous really mine ? All these times i've known yous , th quarrels we had , th bickering that took place , it just made me love you more right now . I remember we used to be loggerheads , how amazing that actually seems . Now that we are together , is is going to last ? Or is it going end up just like yours nds my other relationship ? I'm really scared , i'm afraid that I will get caught . Wills yous really wait , like you claimed ? Be my last romance , will yous ?
Oh . My phone line got cut off . Anything leave tags at my blog , comment me at friendster , or leave me messages on MSN . I wills get back to yous people .
AHGIRL`JOEY {:: Sillybaby , Give me your blog email , I invite you t my blog .
your blog not private what , i thought . lloves((:
guaii di di: wey....nvr link me arh....
hahas . next time luhs . i lazy .
SIEWJIA: why? don't say that okay. it's really not the end yet. really. you can still change your future
it has , so far .
boy , i love you . 11:45 AM
Wednesday, August 6, 2008'♥
Late morning , early afternoon , bused to ahvin`korkor house . On th way , talked on phone withs Robin nds Ryan`didi . Reached aljunied , stunned to see kor fucking asleep . Never go school again , bad KELVIN NGIAM . Anyways , met up withs Robin . Sibeii buang , scare th freak hell out of me mans . He was like treating as though I'm really his girlf or something . Scary . After that around four plus met withs Stanley`hamster at aljunied mrt((: He looked like someone , damn alike . Gosh . Supposedly , we were suppose to take train to City Hall to meet Qihan to watch Money Not Enough 2 . But saw hims on th train instead . Lols . So Vin`korkor , Ryan`didi , Stanley`Hamster , Evon`marmiie , Qihan plus me took train to City Hall . Stanley got shy o.o he said he was scared , hahas . Damn funny , nds kinda cute ? Lols . Whatever . So he left ): So stupid , after that , Qihan left cause his friend tio taiji . Bobian need him to go down . What th FUCK . Left th few of us , bought tickets . Played pool . My skills rusty liaos ! Oh my god luhs ! This sucks . I was called " Qie Bao Queen " , kor was named " Tyco King " . He damned tyco , everytime aim this one but heng heng another in .
Was watching Money Not Enough 2 , it's a damn emotional movie cans . I cried th shit fuck out of me when th grandmother sacrificed herself just to save her grand-daughter . There's parts where th movie is hilarious , but I prefer to touching scenes . More worth th money . I was also thinking what wills happen if my grandmother passed away while I'm running away from home . Seriously , I will be damn exasperated . Really .
I love you , grandma .
CRYSTAL: hhohoho . laogong ^^ !! withlovees <333
laopo ! hehhehs , loves :D
cheryl , yuan: daddyyyyyyyyyyy:DDDD iloveyou
DDDDDDDDDDnu-er ! wo ye ai ni ; see yous soon :DD
SIEWJIA: hey! don't be so pessimistic about what you can change alright? so what if you did do bad things last time? you can still change for the better
you dont have to do sc proud, all you got to do is to I can't do anyone proud anymore . Really can't .
SIEWJIA: make youself proud
cheer up yeah?Yeah , I wills try to . Thanks(:
SIEWJIA: and i'm sure you'll be able to do it, when you put your heart to it
Hahas , maybe .
chemis3: Walao...ur aunt...dam sadistic sia...
o.o what about my aunt ?
chemis3-1st aug: Yea...coz i will be there...i dont go round saying things that i cant do...really. I'm in no position to judge you but...i must say...b4 u thinking of commiting...its hard to kill a man...
lols . too cheem , cannot understand .
chemis3-1st aug: Con'T....Its harder to kill yourself..and its not worth it...idk much..but its common sense.
i don't see common sense :o
boy , i love you . 3:44 AM
Sunday, August 3, 2008'♥
Th day before yesterday th yesterday ( meaning 3107 ) , went to watch MUMMY((: Nice show , watched it at Woodlands Causeway`Point withs Vin`korkor , Ryan`didi nds MinKai`boyf . It was damn retarded luhs ! I screamed at one part , then everyone started laughing at me . So paiseh D: But Jet Li is damn hot in th movie , he could control th elements :o He may be old , but he sure have th looks =x Slacked until like 9 plus , then Vin`korkor , Ryan`didi nds me go to lan shop play audition . Lucky Ryan`didi , he finally level . FINALLY . All left for home around eleven plus going twelve plus . Reached home 5 minutes before twelve . My aunt told me I was smart , knew how to calculate time . " Wahs , so smart reached 5 minutes before th Hell Gate open . Know how to calculate . " LOL .
0108 .
Nothing much . Stayed at home , slept till 5 plus . Phoned Vin`korkor , asked if he want to go out slack . He wanted to but Evon`marmiie didn't allow . But whatever , went to his house . Played audition till 10 plus . Then in th end marmiie still agreed for him to go out ton withs me . So we went to Tech Whye , waited for Zell . Which HE WAS DAMN FUCKING SLOW . But eventually he finally came , picked us went to his house , watched movies . Boring shows during ghost month . I thought we could watch those super thrill-y movies to make me freak out , but failed . Left early morning for Vin`korkor house again . Slept through till like 1 plus in th noon .
0208 .
Crystal`laopo ders sms woke me up , she reminded me that she nds cheryl`nuer on their way to Bugis already . So I faster wake up do everything thens jiu left Vin`korkor to meet Crystal`laopo , Cheryl`nuer , Daniel`didi nds this other girl . Don't know her name . Had fun slacking around , especially disiao-ing didi nds laopo that time . Hahas . Thens don't know what I jiu leave for BBQ . Then till today , 0308 , afternoon just reach home .
* Somebody called TengHong just called me , I think he is --UNO-SKYx3 . I pretended that I don't know him * =x
xyz: hey gurl running away won't resolve anything. perhaps its high tym for u 2 reflect on ur actions.. i knw its hard 2 accept the truth but there's no escapin' from it either
yeah , i know . but , i've already reflected yet there's no way back .
kaiLin: haha confirmed its sam alreadt. and he claims that he doesnt know malcolm. which is like weird. hahas.
fuck samuel . FUCK . lols . he is one damn fucker :o
kaiLin: anyways whats our one year anni plan? go out play okoks ? dont tell me youre booked . its next thursday qirl ;D
girl , where are you ! WHERE . call me soon , please ! D:
Adelia!: HAHAHA violet! i'm so proud of you! YOU HAVE TO DO SC PROUD OKAY? Hope to see you SOON!
yeahs soon , but no proud doing .
♥`i'm Lyn.: i dunno, i'm going insane. D: aiyo girl, dont sad lei, dont emo. you know somewhere out there, there is a rainbow with lotsa ponies. [:
haish . how can i not be D:
lauren: hey violet don't give up hope yet alright. you're young and you have a great life ahead of you. just know how to maximise that potential. i believe in you =) jia you <3
thanks babe , but i doubt i'll be able to make it anymore .
cheryl , yuan: daddy
DDD dun sad sad . nu er here ((:NUER ! yous also cannot sad okays ! stop saying yourself ugly cause yous not .
qiying: HEYY! its okay yeah? as long as you dont give up just yet, im sure you can do it. ENDURE! you'll surely find that silver lining <3
i really cannot . nds i'm wondering when i can .
boy , i love you . 2:52 PM
Friday, August 1, 2008'♥
Dear lord , when can I really get happiness ? When can I really be settled into this family of mine ? Why do I have to screw everything up that's seems perfect ? Am I really th cause to my own downfall ? I'm here to repent , oh lord . But , I am not getting that chance anymore . I've disappointed yet another few people again , cause I'm going to hostel . Which I don't intend to face this reality , I'm choosing to runaway . Call me stupid , call me naive , call me COWARD . I just can't face this reality . So much for I yearn for , I don't want to be away from home . But why can't anyone see that point . Let's just forget all this alright ? Forget there's someone named violet . Caused , she's just a nobody . She doesn't deserve all this love that her family nds friends are giving her . Let alone say she's someone of calibre . She has none . She's just another bitch . Really .
I miss her , my so-called best friend . But is she really one ? I don't blame her for anything that has happened , even if she stabbed that wound of mine twice , she's still my best friend , ever that I have . I missed those times with her . But I will never be able to go back who I once was . I've learned , not to trust . It hurts to trust . It does . Nobody will support me like they always say they will . It's all just a facade . A mask that everyone puts on . I'm sick of all this . Maybe , one day when I'm really tired of all this . I will end it all . But is death really that simple like it seems ?
Boyf . They are just guys trying to play with me , they are sincere , as their mouth speaks . Their actions seems otherwise . I don't feel sincerity at all . None at all . That's why I chose to end every relationship first , before they did with me . I'm just trying not to get hurt . I'm weak , really weak .
I ❤ my family .
I ❤ my friends .
I ❤ you , if you know who you are .
♥`i'm Lyn.: i'll tell you asap, once i figure the thing out myself. [: haha.
hahas . figure what ?
windz: yo jie, tagged
yo di . hahas .
kaiLin: one year one year. hahas qirl ! lols i forgot what i wanted to say. i'll come back when i remember (:
lols . sure sure . ONE YEAR FASTER COME !
kaiLin: ohright, tiziana has a boyfriend ; maybe its tht`idiot samuel lye. HAHAS
lols . fuck that bastard .
CRYSTAL: laogong (: aini wor. ^^tagtag
laopo ! ❤ .
qiying: HELLO! WHOA triple science alr leh! must mug alrr (: OH OH. coool beatty ncc? haha. TELL US WHEN YOU ARE GOING FOR COURSES!
i doubt so already . read my post nds yous wills understand .
passer-by: hello i dont know you, but just want to say that if you want to start afresh, you can do it (: good luck for everything!
lols . thanks , but it's not going to happen already .
hi: All the best. Don't waste it.
hello hi , i'm bye =x thanks , but i'm wasting it . sorrys .
kkor: 6 MONTH LERHS HAHAS
yups .
xinyuan: YAY HAHA VIOLET YOU'RE IN TRIPLE SCIENCE????? SO COOL ALL THE BEST YEAH?
YOU CAN DO IT HEHE I LOVE YOU!!thanks encik ! but , i'm wasting it . i'm sorry . i ❤ yous too (:
kaiLin: qirl jiayous okays ;D i support you all the way (:
boy , how i wish you can talk me through all this . really . ❤
boy , i love you . 1:05 AM
Thursday, July 31, 2008'♥
HAPPY 6th MONTH ANNIVERSARY , VIN`KOR ! :D
310108 .
That's about it , yeah ? Life is really horrible , full of ups nds downs . My admission into BSS is being doubted right now . Seriously , th principal posted a question to me . " What is th goal in your life ? " No doubts , I was stunned . It just hit me hard in th face that I realized , I don't really have a goal at all . At that point , everything was over . I thought . Apparently , he wants to give me a chance . He wants me to right a " report " on to convincing him to accepting me into BSS . Still working hard on it right here .
TAGS REPLIED IN NEXT POST , TONIGHT (:
boy , i love you . 9:30 AM
